devil won't recognize you

meooowwwww.....

i am bored. i have nothing to write about lately because i have not seen anything amiss with myo i can talk about. he seems... happy? do take note the question mark here is obviously my wry outlook of the change.

"only sad people blog" that's what i came across from some random posting.

i have not seen him sad; i have not seen him stressed; and most appalling, i have not seen him angry (which is a big deal when it comes to myo). he even talks funny nowadays. and yes that's me being cynical again...

meowwww...

not as we

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unkind, insane
This faint and shaken hour

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

Gun-shy and shivering
Tear it without a hand
Feign brave but still intent
Little and hardly here

Day one, day one
Start over again
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

Eyes wet,
Toward wide open freight
If God is taking bias,
I pray he wants to lose

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

- alanis

lost and found

meooowwwww....

myo just arrived home about half an hour ago and had a sheepish smile as he entered his room. and then i knew he was feeling guilty.

apparently, myo was on a shopping frenzy on his off day today buying more pants and more jeans (although he justifies that he can't fit into his pants anymore) and more t shirts and more polos. major retail therapy session going on if you ask me.

i knew later after trying to pacify me with a new bag of crystal litter (only!) that he spent the day catching up with his former desk mate who just returned from israel, syria, turkey and the middle east countries. she, yes i repeat SHE went away for 7 months all by herself trying to find herself. a chinese girl journeying through the middle east countries, clearly an anomaly amidst the burqas.

i remember how myo got a little pensive then when she left. wondering whether he would ever do such a thing. or could even afford to do such a thing. financially, physically and emotionally.

he has mentioned to me once about how he already felt lost at home. how can he be found then in alien surroundings he asked. where is his haven? and what is he hoping to find? is it a bearing to further map his life's course? or a foothold to anchor?


while myo tries to locate his answers, i shall now dig the new mountain of crystal litter to cover up my crap....

prurrrrrrrr....